December 2010
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Merry Christmas to all my friends, followers, and acquaintances. I wish you all a Happy New Year, bringing you great tidings, health, and happiness. ♥ God bless.
I am lost
me: it's quite the plate full. man honestly this is the first time ive ever been nervous for a new year
Hitomi: how come?
me: i dont know why i am either, which bothers me a lot :/ i can sense a lot of change coming my way in 2011, and it doesnt feel so much like a lot of good change. my life is changing so fast, and it's really hard to digest already, and the older i get the more serious choices i have to make.. soon enough i have to make choices that determine the rest of my life, and im not sure if im ready for that. i wonder if i can make the right choice. i feel like i need more time.
Hitomi: hm really? yeah i feel you. its hard to think about that kind of stuff. im kinda freaking out about whats gonna happen and what im gonna do
me: i am not the best at handling so much change all in a moment. yeah same here. and lately thats been bugging my mind a lot. i feel like i am not working hard enough. something in my mind is telling me i have to prepare for something big next year, and its quite the load. im so un sure about my future.. gaaah sorry if im not making sense. i am just worried about my life being way to different so much to the point where i can't recognize myself.
Hitomi: man, thats deep. and i know what you mean. like i cant be this lazy like i am right now and i feel like i should be doing something really important to prepare myself...ahh idk what im doing right now
me: i completely feel the same way; i have no idea what i'm doing right now.. i am struggling, literally, struggling to move forward, and i feel blinded of what forward is. i am really hoping i can find an answer at camp.
Hitomi: omg same here amy! its crazy your feeling the same way i am. i thought it was just me:)
me: haha, aw, im so glad i can relate to you. that makes me feel so much better. i felt like i was the only one feeling this way too.
Hitomi: yeah.. im pretty much lost right now. i hope camp will change that, i think it will!
me: yeah i really hope so. i am trying to have faith that god has a plan for me.
Hitomi: same same. i have a feeling itll be a good experience
me: yeah its really hard to stay positive when you feel like your life is going no where. i'm really trying to search for a road i can walk. so im definitely looking forward to camp too, because i need some guidence. i feel postive that it will be a great experience too.
Hitomi: true that! haha lifes so complicated right noww.
me: haha aju sister
Hitomi: :)
me: well in this mixed up roller coaster journey called life i hope that you can atleast find your calling hitomi. haha.
Hitomi: haha you too amy, you too.
Reblog if your life has changed a lot this year.
in so many ways.
I CAN'T WAIT
for camp lone star day after tomorrow! <3 You have no idea how long i’ve been waiting for this. :)
6433.) I don't know what I am going to do with the...
sounds too much like me :/
I hate realizing when someone was never really my...
whether it’s reflecting on that person from the past, and realizing it, or when it suddenly hits you while you’re still “friends” with them. It’s probably one of the worst feelings in the world..
“Once you realize that God’s got your back, there’s no need to front.”
– (via samanthangela)
My mom
is definitely one of my best friends. She always puts me and my brothers first, and sacrifices so much. She even left her dear home Japan, so that we could be here. She does so much for me, and I am so glad I have a mother like her in my life. She is so strong and amazing, she never fails to inspire me. Her perseverance, dedication, hard working attitude, courage, faith, and her ability to only...
I saw the Lunar Eclipse.
iamanowl-hearmehoot:
while freezing, but it’s really pretty. :)
6370.) Sometimes I almost tell them... But only...
oh my God, it’s scary how much this sounds like a friend of mine..
I learn something new everyday
The more days that pass by, the more I begin to realize things every day. And the more I age I discover things way beyond greater than myself and things I could ever imagine. I learned that my faith is way more than just my way of life but also my morals, my motivation, my destiny, my future, it is my life. Without it I could not stand. If we were only here to get our dream job, dream house and...
“The gospel spreads at the speed of friendship.”
Food for Thoughts.
The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company… a church… a home. It is...
hetoldme-so asked: hey amy! :)
No one really knows who I am, but that’s okay with me. I’m capable of standing on my own two feet.
My Storybook: Live Large →
helloimamyv:
One of my Science teachers claimed that every choice we made in life revolved around our desire to acquire a single thing: sex. He would say that it was every being’s ultimate purpose to attracting the opposite sex in any means possible. He argued that it was a primitive, unalterable biological imperative (thereby excusing the human race our frequent idiocy?). He said that from the...
We both know
things can’t be the same anymore. We deny it, but it happened, and it’s never going to go away. It’s always going to exist, and that can’t be denied.
I feel like I annoy every single person I talk to.
WINTER BREAK
HAS BEGAN! I’m freeeee for over two whole weeks. It feels soo good. I have soo many plans. I can’t wait till this weekend, or Christmas, or till I go to Texas. It’s gonna be a good break. <3
Maria,
Well yesterday was my last day with her.. but it didn’t feel like it. It feels like when we go back to school on January 5th, I’ll see her again at school, in the halls, eating lunch with us, but inside I know I’m not gonna see her in school anymore.. I can’t believe I will walk into my second period class and not see her there sitting behind me, smiling. God, I miss her...
People like you
make a difference in my life.
When girls cry, it's not over just one thing, it's...
Hello positive
The last thing I need is more stress and grief, so for now I’m just gonna put all that to the side, and enjoy my winter break that starts tomorrow. Tomorrow is my last day with Maria, so I’m definitely going to make the most of it. Then after that I’m spending the rest of the day with my two best friends, Sofia, and Zoey. <3 I KNOW tomorrow will be great, and I’m not...
This fascade
of mine, covers all of the pain that’s really going on. I smile because I don’t want you to worry, even though we both know everything’s not okay.
leave what's said on tumblr, on tumblr
I really don’t like it when people talk about tumblr blogs in person, what happens on tumblr, stays on tumblr. Let’s leave it like that.
word.
and even when i need you most, you're never there.
i don’t think you understand how much I miss you right now.. Whenever I see you, I act like it doesn’t kill me.
I can't get you off my mind
and I don’t know why.. I try so hard, but I can never get you out of my head. idafgkfjlw
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If only you knew..
everything that I know, than life would be so much easier.. ugh.
If you don't wanna talk just say so, why let me...
You mean a lot more to me than you realize
I can’t believe you’re moving in only 2 weeks, I can’t stand to watch you leave, I’m terrified of even the thought of it. :/ I FINALLY get close to you, and now you have to leave, it breaks my heart. I know it’s hard enough for you, so I don’t want to make it any harder. I never show you how much it really saddens my heart, but you mean so much to me....
shewasaghost:
megatron-:
So i gotta pretend,...
When you take a picture with your friend and she...
amberbanana:
and you look like
then she uploads it on facebook and tags you in it .
LOL, all the timeeee.
